Still alive and kicking
It’s been a while…
since I posted a quick video and even longer since I worked on a proper tutorial. The reasons have been plentiful. They range from simply being ‘too busy with life’ to serious health issues. I had a major health threat that took a long time to be checked out and finally ruled out. When the doctor told me that it might be cancer, the initial response was ‘sh**, why me?’. I lost close family members to cancer in the past. It felt wrong. I am too young. I watch my diet and lifestyle and keeping as fit as my muscular condition allows it. Maybe a bit more at times. I haven’t had any of the symptoms normally associated with it. Yet the blood tests confirmed the numbers. Next up was an ultrasound and an MRI. Both of them showed ‘a zone of interest’. Ultimately, the doctors decided to take a biopsy. It dragged on for months. Even though I tried not let it get to me, it did paralyze me. Finally, two weeks ago I got the all clear. It was a major relief.
Oddly, the immediate reaction of joy and the loss of the burden came with a loss of tension and drive. I felt sorry for myself when I should have been the happiest. It’s taken a while [with too much coffee and chocolate] to get back into a mindset to open up the blog. I look at the declining viewer numbers and realize that I miss the posts, the tutorials, and the pains of putting together a video. Passing on some of the knowledge I acquired feels good. The intentions are there, the plans and the ideas for new posts are plentyful. A lot of them sit in the dark corners of my hard drives already. They are just waiting to be released. I will try and find the time and energy to make that happen.
Thanks for your patience. I hope to see you around for more entertaining and helpful posts in the near future.